American singer/songwriter Billie Eilish has expressed her feelings about growing up in the public eye.
The singer told the BBC that any prospective boyfriend has to understand that her fans come first.
Billie gained public attention in 2015 with her debut single “Ocean Eyes”, which was written and produced by her brother Finneas O’Connell with whom she collaborates on music and lives shows.
When asked how she would describe herself, she said, “I have no idea. I don’t know. I feel like I might have known how to answer a couple of years ago. I don’t know anymore. Because I don’t look at myself in that way. I don’t look at myself like I’m something to explain. I just exist. I’m just a person. I’m just existing and doing my part in life.”
In the Apple TV+ documentary, The World’s a Little Blurry, there’s a moment when Katy Perry pulls Billie aside right before the singer is about to take the Coachella stage in 2019 and tells Billie she can call if she ever needs any help understanding the bizarre world of pop stardom.
Katy Perry warned her then that things were only going to get more hectic. And while Billie has not taken Perry up on her offer yet, it still lingers in her mind. “I should call her up. At the time I just didn’t believe her. I didn’t think it would keep going…it’s really hard to see your future like that.. it was already so crazy. I couldn’t imagine it being crazier,”
And while the accolades and attention have rained down like a glittering meteor shower, Billie said that growing up in the public eye has been a “very bruising experience” that makes it very hard to develop the change in the way her age-appropriate peers might be. With no playbook, Billie said she didn’t know what to do, which led to her just “grasping at straws,” even during a record-setting past few years where accolades piled up and she felt tinges of “severe imposter syndrome.”